Wednesday, June 14, 2006
WARNING!
THIS BLOG ENTRY CONTAINS GRAPHIC DETAILS! THINK TWICE BEFORE READING!
After first day, poof! I'm here back at home. I'll be absent for 2 days! Why? Because of my huge mistake about this infected open wound near my left ankle. I knew something is really wring about my open wound and pus are coming are always coming out of this friggin wound. Actuall,y it l;ooks like a boil gone wrong!!
Yesterday after classes, before going to the school van, I went to the clinic to check on my wound and ask what anitbiotics should be used and what i should to with it? I told her this was infected for 3 or 4 days and when i showed her my pretty skin hiding under the bandage , she was shocked! She said that thing is big and i should see a doctor immediately. She cleansed my wound and replaced my bandage to a new one. I was walking crippled to the school van and then i told mom that i havta go and see a doctor. So we went. Then my mom was stunned when the doctor said that my ankle should be x-rayed and be cleansed ASAP. And maybe it would be stitched! I was like, “go for it!!” well, it's for the better and para matapos na!!!
at the operation, they injected anti-tetano (tama ba?) then started to put spread liquid thingys to my wound then injected anesthesia to lessen the pain. When doing the operation, i was laughing! It tickles! I was watching what they're doing to me until the doctor told the nurse to give me a pillow to hug on. So i took the pillow and i couldn't see what's happening but i can feel it. I was like squeezing my eyes because of the stingy pain and at the same time i was laughing! Weird!!
enough about the graphic scenes. Well again, here i am stuck at home AGAIN [parang bakasyon] doing what i used to do last summer...
well that does it...ciao!!
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
Officially 15
It is official. I'm another year older and I'm saying goodbye to fourteen and say hello to fifteen. My morning started just right...my sister was the first one to greet me and then our helpers at home sang a happy birthday song, ate cereal for breakfast with my sister and my cousin, received a Happy Birthday kiss from my Dad, I lied down on my mom's bed to give her a morning kiss, a devotional book from kuya and an organizer from his girlfriend, a offline IM from my sister and a birthday wish from my bestfriend....nothing could be better. I'm overwhelmed about it.
The date is perfect, June 12, then the day after that (which is tomorrow) is the first day of school. It is perfect for a new start. I'll start everything from scratch. Forget all my worries and look forward for tomorrow.
Thank God I'm a year older now! All I wanna do now is to pray and read the book my brother gave me. There are so many things I want to thank. Actually I'm getting emotional now (y'know guys, I'm softy at times) and mixed emotions are coming in and out of my head! Well to ask you a question, have you ever thank people who mean so much to you at your birthday? And have you ever raised your hands to the skies and thank the Lord that he gave you another year to live?
I was reflecting about what I was when I was fourteen. Many challenges came up to me and the real world is slowly showing up to me and making my eyes and heart open to what is really happening. I have sacrificed a lot of things even the thing that I really loved, I have learned to move on despite all of the darkness that was blocking my light, I have learned to love again, and I have learned my lessons in all of my mistakes. A lot has happened to me when I was fourteen.
And now I'm fifteen, like I said, I'll start everything from scratch, refresh myself to have a good start in my brand new life.
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
Am I Ready?
Am I ready?
For what? A lot of things for crying out loud!!!
Well here I am updating my blog just to put direction in my life
[don't ask why and how].There a lot of things I have to be ready for starting tomorrow. Well
tomorrow is my 15th birthday and the next day is the first day of school. Anyways, I'll update my blog next time and I'll share what will happen.
Yours truly,
Christela
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Friday, June 09, 2006
not understandable....
the brain of this beholder is already full
it aches... and the pain will never go away
her hands are lazy yet calloused
her voice is powerful yet coarsed
she was never perfect...never
but she always knew that she can be better...
in her mind is a wide universe
with lost planets and stars...
she screamed out loud...
she wanted peace...
and then eveything was quiet
all she can hear is her breath...
she never found peace...
but she never knew that...
she's in peace when everything is in chaos
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Friday, June 02, 2006
My Deliverance of Jesus from the Da Vinci Code
Here's my comment about the Da Vinci Code. Whether believe or not to believe about the secret, it doesn't change my faith about God. Why be affected if Jesus Christ made it with Mary Magdalene and had a child? I don't really think it is a bad thing... maybe because it will disgrace Jesus' purity? I said to myself, so what? he IS God and was it a disgrace to His Father? And Jesus is part human and he also can experience affection to the opposite sex! Jesus did a lot for humanity and about Him having a baby is not a mud of your white clothing to Him. Mary Magdalene was saved by Jesus and it doesn't matter if Jesus fell in love. Jesus teaches love, so why be against it? Some people will say that Jesus will never do that, but I say 'why not?' He can do anything He wants and He will do nothing to disgrace us and to His Father. I've always looked up to Jesus and what He did for humanity means a lot big time.
The thing that I am bothered about is, why keep it a secret? I am a Christian and I would be proud that Jesus had a daughter. But if we put it this way, if the secret was not a secret before, things could've been worse or better at the present. But, who knows?
I think it was sooooooo barbaric that in the old times men put women in the stake because one of them may be the bloodline of Jesus and made an excuse taht they're witches! You know what I think? This secret maybe started the discrimination of women. And I think this secret made this policy about there souldn't be a Catholic priestess...just priests and the women are just nuns.
For me, this didn't really affected my faith to God! Jesus can have a family, I respect Him, after all He's God! Actually, the Da Vinci Code made my faith stronger. Why? Because I can defend God about this. I may be at the middle between "Believe the code and weaken your faith" and "Dont believe the code because this is just to destroy Christianity" but the bottom line is: No other story, true or not, will weaken my faith in God"
I'm just sharing what I think and what I believe. I love talking about this things because this made me defend about God and what I think.
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